Breath of heaven
Hold me together
I've thought a lot about Mary the past few days. The mother of Jesus. The woman (girl, really) chosen to usher the Son of Man into the world as a baby. Greatest honour, but greatest fears realized.
I wonder if she really understood the enormity of the task that was set before her. If she was able to fully comprehend what it meant to be carrying Jesus and raising Him as her own. Did she have any idea the pain that was to come. The sacrifice He was going to make. The tears that she would shed over Him. Did she feel overwhelmed at the thought or was it all like a strange dream.
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven
Did she call out to God and beg Him for patience and guidance when she felt overwhelmed. Did she sob along with her baby when He was born or stare at Him with wonder and awe? Was she scared, giving birth all alone in a strange city? Did she feel the comfort of God, knowing that all would be right and as it should? Did peace overcome all the other emotions that she was bound to feel as a new mother?
Breath of heaven
Light up my darkness
Did Mary ever wish she wasn't bestowed the task of being the mother of our Lord? Did she ever hope that this "cross" would be taken from her? Or did she relish every moment of the time she had with her baby Jesus? Did she long for someone to take over and let her sleep? Did she wish that she could just curl up in a ball and not hear those wails- begging for food or comfort? Did she ever wish that time could stand still? Were her tears salty with frustration or joy?
Pour over me your holiness
For you are holy
Was Mary a mother just like me? Did she wonder what Jesus' future would look like? Did she pray for him nightly? Did she watch her baby sleep, knowing that He wouldn't be hers forever? Did she love so much that it hurt? Did she look at Him and know that, without a doubt, there is a real and true God who loves us all more than we could ever imagine? Did she fear her ability to properly raise her Son to be what God wanted him to be?
Breath of Heaven
Did she realize that everything she gave up to be the mother of Jesus would mean so much to those of us who believe?
Did she know the eternal impact she was making on the world, on believers, on me?
