Breath of Heaven

Breath of heaven
Hold me together



I've thought a lot about Mary the past few days. The mother of Jesus. The woman (girl, really) chosen to usher the Son of Man into the world as a baby. Greatest honour, but greatest fears realized.
I wonder if she really understood the enormity of the task that was set before her. If she was able to fully comprehend what it meant to be carrying Jesus and raising Him as her own. Did she have any idea the pain that was to come. The sacrifice He was going to make. The tears that she would shed over Him.  Did she feel overwhelmed at the thought or was it all like a strange dream.



Be forever near me

Breath of Heaven



Did she call out to God and beg Him for patience and guidance when she felt overwhelmed. Did she sob along with her baby when He was born or stare at Him with wonder and awe? Was she scared, giving birth all alone in a strange city? Did she feel the comfort of God, knowing that all would be right and as it should? Did peace overcome all the other emotions that she was bound to feel as a new mother?


Breath of heaven

Light up my darkness



Did Mary ever wish she wasn't bestowed the task of being the mother of our Lord? Did she ever hope that this "cross" would be taken from her? Or did she relish every moment of the time she had with her baby Jesus? Did she long for someone to take over and let her sleep? Did she wish that she could just curl up in a ball and not hear those wails- begging for food or comfort? Did she ever wish that time could stand still? Were her tears salty with frustration or joy?


Pour over me your holiness

For you are holy


Was Mary a mother just like me? Did she wonder what Jesus' future would look like? Did she pray for him nightly? Did she watch her baby sleep, knowing that He wouldn't be hers forever? Did she love so much that it hurt? Did she look at Him and know that, without a doubt, there is a real and true God who loves us all more than we could ever imagine? Did she fear her ability to properly raise her Son to be what God wanted him to be?


Breath of Heaven



Did she realize that everything she gave up to be the mother of Jesus would mean so much to those of us who believe? 
Did she know the eternal impact she was making on the world, on believers, on me? 



6 comments:

  1. Whenever I hear the song "Mary, Did you know?" these same questions come to my mind.

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  2. Beautiful. It is sometimes too easy to forget she was a mom just like us and that Jesus was a babe just like our little guys. Christmas is an amazing time of the year to remember and put everything into perspective.

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  3. i've had mary on my mind a lot as well this season. i'm nearly 8 months pregnant and i have sat many evenings and wondered how she felt. wondered what she knew. wondered....wondered.

    great perspective. thank you for sharing.

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  4. i rarely come up with better words when I read what you share Sarah- so at the risk of sounding repetitive "AMAZING!" thanks for sharing!

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  5. Ruth (aka "Grandma")December 31, 2011 at 10:05 AM

    I believe that God inspired you as you wrote this blog. I am so proud of you! xoxo

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  6. I have often wondered similar things about Mary. You have expressed yourself beautifully, Sarah. You have really captured the questions, worries, and joys of motherhood. That's one thing I regret that I will never experience. However, being an aunt and now a great-aunt is a real joy for me. Always remember that God, who is your Father, enables you to be the wonderful mom that you are! Love you and am very proud to be your Aunt.

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